Hello, strangers.
I'll admit it. I'm quirky. I always have been.
When I was younger, I think I tried to hide it. Trying to fit in was the normal thing to do. So, that's what I did... I hid. I had one group of friends, and I just blended in with them.. well, tried to at least. Sure, I went to a small school, so people knew who I was... but I'm not sure I ever really stood out. I never blended really well either though.
I've always felt like I didn't quite fit in perfectly with anyone. It's not a good or a bad feeling; it's just a feeling. I don't really mind it on most days. But that wasn't always the case. I remember comparing myself to my twin sister a lot growing up. It was so easy for her to fit in with everyone. Everyone liked her. I always felt like the odd one out. I felt weird.
Now it doesn't really ever bother me. I'm quirky. This is just how I am. I don't necessarily blend in, and I'm not the type of girl to stand out. I'm incredibly ordinary, and at the same time I'm a little extraordinary. This is just who I am. And it wasn't until I learned to embrace my quirkness that I became any of these things. Feeling comfortable with who I am has transformed my life. Don't get me wrong though.. there are still times I feel incredibly insecure because I'm still trying to figure out how to be myself around people. It's scary letting the real you show when people expect something different... they expect the person you showed them from before. So, it's always a new challenge. (I guess it's a good thing I've always up for a good challenge.)
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm finding it easier to live more authentically... and it's the most wonderful feeling in the world. I've embraced that I'm a little quirky, not at all "normal," and perhaps not as ordinary as I once strived to be. It's been a nice but difficult journey to self discovery, and I'm happy that I've learned that it is entirely ok to just be me.
