Hello, strangers.
Once again I've gone MIA.
I haven't been inspired by much lately, which is why I haven't written much. I've sort of been "stuck" to say the least.
I'm starting to realize that adult life is much different than I imagined it would be. I did everything I was "supposed" to do in the "right" way in order to be sure that I'd have a smooth transition into adulthood. I was Valedictorian of my high school class, graduated in the top 10 students out of 400 for college (undergrad), and made a 4.0 in my Master's program. Besides keeping my grades up, I volunteered, wrote a thesis, and made sure to get experience in the field I wanted to go into. I thought I set myself up to be successful. WRONG!
Where am I now? I have 2 jobs. I was over the moon when I first got offered them. Both are therapist positions, both part time. So, I was able to accept both. Little did I know how few hours I would be getting. Right now I'm probably working 20-30 hours a week and getting paid for 7! It's frustrating. For one of my jobs, I only get paid for the hours I see clients, not the hours I spend preparing paperwork, marketing, or creating my group. For the other job, I was supposed to have more hours, but unfortunately, some of the groups I was supposed to lead haven't started yet. I was told that I'd be working 20-25 paid hours between the 2 jobs, and right now it's 7. I've been beyond pissed. I was sad at first, crying my eyes out on a daily basis. Now I'm just MAD! I've worked my ass off to make sure this wouldn't happen, yet it is. It seems like no matter what I do, how hard I work, it doesn't matter. These are the things they don't tell you about in school.
I keep being told that we will have more clients soon so my hours will pick up. I keep working my ass off in hopes that it'll pay off soon. I'm just getting to the point that I don't know how much longer I can keep working this hard without seeing results without just giving up.
I wish I had something happier, more inspiring to write about tonight, but unfortunately I don't. This is real life bullshit, and right now it's my life. I just needed to vent.
